When a dream dies . . . or is postponed

June 4, 2008 at 10:16 pm (Christian life) (, , , , , , , )

This is a post that has been spinning around in my head for quite some time and has been in my heart for even longer.

Dreams. Everyone has them. Some folks more than others. Some get acted on while others get swept under the rug of realism or fear. Sometimes I think that God has given me a brain that is good for nothing but dreaming. This can be both a blessing and a curse. Off the top of my head I can think of approximately a dozen dreams that I just knew were great ideas and were going to happen that all crumbled to dust before they even reached the launch pad. So, needless to say, an avid dreamer does not an accomplished accomplisher make. But, doggonit! Some of those dreams I just knew were of God! I knew He had given me those dreams for a reason! Surely He wouldn’t want me to be a failure would He?

Not that I have agonized over these sorts of questions (I’m a dreamer, not a worrier, remember?), but I do often consider this question, “What in the heck are You doing, Lord?” Please understand, my life is deeply rooted in the absolute sovereignty of our Lord to do whatever He wills. And just as equally do I trust in His goodness -that He loves to shower His covenant steadfast love on His children. But, sometimes I feel like I have a huge question mark over my head. “Why get so bent out of shape?”, you may ask. Because sometimes I just knew that this dream was not like the rest. This one was from the Lord.

But I’ve read Job enough to know that it’s not my place to question God and especially not to expect an answer. He’s already told me all I need to know. My question has now changed from, “What are you doing God?” to “What do you want me to do now, God?” OK, so He does not want an overseas tribal missionary out of me right now. Alright, so maybe the Pastor thing will have to wait a while longer. Yes, I suppose I can see why it might not be the best time for me to start a new ministry right now. So, what should I be focusing on?

It is at this point, that I received some insight from the life of Noah. Best I can figure, Noah was 500 years old when he got the orders to go insane in the eyes of all his neighbors and start building a huge boat. I’ve heard several preachers point out the fact that it was 100 years later that the flood actually came. What faith was needed to build a boat for 100 years! “Yes”, says Clay the dreamer, “but at least he was getting to work on his God-given dream!” It is not the many years of working, being teased by neighbors, and preaching that gets me. It is the 500 years beforehand. What did Noah do before he even received his orders?

Answer: he found favor in the eyes of the Lord.

So, maybe some of my dreams (even God-given dreams) are on hold right now. Maybe they’re even dead. What am I to do? Answer: find favor in the eyes of the Lord. I have a beautiful wife that the Lord has called me to love and lead. I have 3 beautiful daughters that the Lord has called me to evangelize and disciple. If that means killing bugs for a living in the meantime, so be it. May I find favor in Your eyes, oh Lord.

He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God? Micah 6:8

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1 Comment

  1. the beautiful ordinary said,

    I think you’re right that right now your dreams are on hold for a little while. But while you’re working on finding favor with the Lord in the meantime, I’d be glad to dream with you anytime.

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